Dear Anthony,
As we are now heading into a crucial stage of our relationship, I felt the need to write you a letter.
Anthony, meeting you has changed my life in so many ways. Not only did you change my life, you changed my heart. Before I met you life seemed a waste. I felt alone and unloved. To me life had no meaning. I know you hate this sort of talk but, four months ago there was nothing to live for. Nothing to make me have second guesses about ending it all. I was so alone. I had no one, no one I could share my heart with, talk to, or trust. When Kelsi and I became closer things began to improve. We decided that for spring session I should go on a trip. We decided that France would be the best because it sounded exciting and it gave me a chance to get away from everything that had been bothering me. However, little did I know that this trip was to change my life forever.
While walking in the Atlanta airport giggling with Kelsi I saw you for the first time. There you were sitting in a chair talking with Stefan. Never in my life have I felt what i felt at the precise moment. My heart seemed to rise to my throat and butterflies filled my entire body. I knew at that time that I wanted to be with you. While we were on the plane together I got to know you much better and fell deeper into that feeling. You seemed perfect. You had a great sense of humor and made me laugh numerous times. You spoke and sounded very intelligent, and you carried good conversations. Most of all, you seemed like the person that wouldn't hurt me. That is what I longed for the most. Some one I could give my love to and to receive it in return with out the anxiety of being hurt. I felt like you could be that person. I remember you asking me if the only reason i hung out with you and your group was because of my fight with Brittany Palmer. Well the answer is NO. I wanted to be near you, I wanted to get to know you better and hope that maybe, just maybe you would develop feelings for me. Every moment I spent with you I began to like you more and more. I longed to hold you, to tell you how I felt, but the lingering fear of rejection held me away. The turning point for me was when you placed your arm around me as we were taking the group picture in the Cognac vineyards. That action whether intended or not told me that you could have possibly had some feelings for me. So I mustered up all me courage and asked to sit next to you on the train. As we sat there we talked and laughed as if we had been long time friends. At this point in time I could not hide my feelings for you anymore. I snuggled up close to you and rested my head upon your shoulder. When you then again out your arm warmly around me and laid you head upon mine I knew that you had some feelings for me. Happiness spread through me, an emotion i had not felt in quite some time filled my heart and soul. You brought back that spark of life that was missing from me. You made me live again, you gave me strength to continue on.
The night at the Eiffel Tower is the most memorable event in my life. Sitting with you at the dinner table having dinner and sipping champagne made me so happy. Leaving the table and heading up to the top of the tower made my whole body tingle, and not just because of the cold. It was the romantic setting, looking over Paris lit up at night and standing there with you made me want to yell out to all of Paris my feelings for you. Before I could tell you, you pulled me aside and asked me if I wanted to be your girlfriend. Right then you made me the happiest person in all of Europe, hell in the whole world. I was utterly speechless all i could do was mutter yes and throw my arms around you. I know that you had wanted to kiss me on top of the tower and so did I. I figured we were both too nervous to do so. I was shaking in my boots I was so nervous. Once we got to the hotel I figured that I would make the first move. My plan was to get us alone in the elevator so I could kiss you. All was going well till a Chinese man entered the elevator with us. As he walked out I only had one more floor till mine. I gathered my strength and kissed you as the doors opened to my floor. Even though I missed the kiss melted my heart. I ran from the elevator leaving you behind, I had been so shaken up by kissing you that I had run in the wrong direction. Once I had found my room I plopped down on the bed and giggled for at least ten minuets. Then drifted off to sleep.
When I woke the next morning I thought that everything that had happened had been a dream. It all seemed to perfect for my screwed up life. I was terrified. So instead of going down to dinner I instead stayed upstairs and packed. When I heard a knock at the door and opened it to find you relief spread through me. That night was not a dream and you were a part of my life. Sitting next to you on the bus to the airport and on both plane rides was amazing. Just being around you made my heart go crazy. Once we had landed in Miami I knew, I knew I had fallen in love in Paris.
That experience in Paris is one that I will never forget. After we got back to Miami I was excited to get to spend time with you and to get to know you even better. As time went on I learned more and more about you as a person. You are such an amazing guy, you have no idea. Our first real date at the Sushi Siam was a blast, even though it was a bit awkward I really enjoyed myself. I even remember our first kiss, you and I in the parking lot saying goodbye. You leaned over to me and kissed me gently on the lips. Feeling your warm soft lips touch mine almost made my knees buckle. Since then the physical portion of our relationship has grown. For instance, the first time you attempted to make out with me.